Middle School Diary 7

我原以为自己有个周全的计划。

I thought I had a solid plan.

计划只持续了大约五分钟。

The plan lasted about five minutes.

从那以后，一切都出了问题。

After that, everything went wrong.

除了我，没人感到惊讶。

Nobody was surprised except me.

我早该料到的。

I should have expected it.

有些教训难以吸取。

Some lessons are hard to learn.

看来我又需要提醒了。

Apparently I needed another reminder.

这跟我想象的不一样。

This was not how I imagined things.

我一直在希望它会好转。

I kept hoping it would get better.

没有。

It didn't.

我本想做正确的事。

I was trying to do the right thing.

那本应该让事情变得简单一些。

That should have made things easier.

反而把事情搞得更复杂了。

Instead it made things complicated.

人们误解了我的意图。

People misunderstood my intentions.

我表达不清楚。

I couldn't explain myself properly.

每个解释听起来都更糟。

Every explanation sounded worse.

越说越深陷其中。

The more I talked, the deeper I got.

有时候沉默是更好的选择。

Sometimes silence is the better option.

吃一堑，长一智。

I learned that the hard way.

并非每个人都想要解释。

Not everyone wants an explanation.

我不想让任何人失望。

I didn't want to disappoint anyone.

期望相当高。

The expectations were pretty high.

大家对我似乎很有信心。

Everyone seemed confident in me.

我远没有那么自信。

I wasn't nearly as confident.

我很担心会让别人失望。

I worried about letting people down.

那种压力一直伴随着我。

That pressure stayed with me.

它跟着我到处跑。

It followed me everywhere.

我一直无法停止想它。

I couldn't stop thinking about it.

即便是简单的事情也会觉得困难。

Even simple tasks felt difficult.

压力会影响人。

Stress can do that to you.

我以为什么都知道了。

I thought I knew what was happening.

这时我才意识到自己完全错了。

Then I realized I was completely wrong.

事实却讲述了另一个故事。

The facts told a different story.

我错过了重要的事情。

I had missed something important.

一个细节改变了一切。

One detail changed everything.

突然明白过来了。

Suddenly the situation made sense.

我真是太蠢了，竟然没注意到。

I felt foolish for missing it.

答案本来就已经很明显了。

The answer had been obvious.

有时候，太近了反而看不清。

Sometimes you're too close to see it.

角度不同，结果不同。

Perspective makes a difference.

我的朋友们都持有强烈的观点。

My friends had strong opinions.

遗憾的是，他们都不同。

Unfortunately they were all different.

每个人都认为自己是对的。

Everyone thought they were right.

没有人愿意妥协。

Nobody wanted to compromise.

讨论没有结果。

The discussion went nowhere.

我们争论了好几个小时。

We spent hours arguing.

最终我们什么也没解决。

In the end we solved nothing.

至少大家都表达了自己的想法。

At least everyone expressed themselves.

这倒也是。

That's something, I guess.

不过，没什么用罢了。

Not a very useful something though.

我尽力避免惹麻烦。

I tried to stay out of trouble.

麻烦总是找上我。

Trouble kept finding me anyway.

也许我只是运气不好。

Maybe I just have bad luck.

或者也许是我做出了糟糕的决定。

Or maybe I make bad decisions.

答案可能是两者兼而有之。

The answer is probably both.

不管怎样，结果都是一样的。

Either way, the result was the same.

我被迫处理后果。

I was stuck dealing with the consequences.

没有简单的出路。

There was no easy way out.

我不得不面对这个问题。

I had to face the problem.

回避已无可能。

Avoiding it wasn't an option anymore.

我总是忍不住拿自己和别人比较。

I couldn't stop comparing myself to others.

每个人似乎都在某些方面更擅长些。

Everyone seemed better at something.

有些人做任何事都显得轻而易举。

Some people made everything look easy.

我就知道这不可能是真的。

I knew that couldn't be true.

没有人能把一切都想明白。

Nobody has it all figured out.

人们只展现故事的一部分。

People only show part of the story.

我不断提醒自己那件事。

I kept reminding myself of that.

有一点帮助。

It helped a little.

没有我期望的那么多。

Not as much as I hoped.

但这是个开始。

But it was a start.

整件事感觉很荒谬。

The whole situation felt ridiculous.

要是有人早点告诉我，我根本不会相信。

If someone had told me earlier, I wouldn't have believed it.

然而我就在那里。

Yet there I was.

全情投入每一刻。

Living through every second of it.

现实比小说更离奇。

Reality can be stranger than fiction.

这就是证明。

This was proof of that.

我一直在等待一个合理的解释。

I kept waiting for a reasonable explanation.

无人前来。

None ever came.

有些事情就是说不通。

Some things just don't make sense.

你必须接受这一点。

You have to accept that.

我做出了承诺。

I made a promise.

结果保留它很难。

Keeping it turned out to be difficult.

持续的时间越长，就越困难。

The longer it went on, the harder it became.

我开始质疑我的决定。

I started questioning my decision.

这真的值得吗？

Was it really worth it?

我不再确定。

I wasn't sure anymore.

然而，我并不想放弃。

Still, I didn't want to quit.

放弃感觉更糟。

Giving up felt worse.

有时候承诺很重要。

Sometimes commitment matters.

即使在不方便的时候。

Even when it's inconvenient.

最终问题自行解决了。

Eventually the problem solved itself.

那比你想的更常见。

That happens more often than you'd think.

我所有的担忧没有改变任何事情。

All my worrying changed nothing.

结果并非我能左右。

The outcome was out of my hands.

我本可以避免很多压力。

I could have saved myself a lot of stress.

也许这是另一个教训。

Maybe that's another lesson.

并非每个问题都需要立即行动。

Not every problem needs immediate action.

有时候耐心就足够了。

Sometimes patience is enough.

我还在学那个。

I'm still learning that.

也许我会一直如此。

Maybe I always will be.