Middle School Diary 10

我预感到要发生什么。

I had a feeling something was about to happen.

我只是不知道是什么。

I just didn't know what.

迹象都摆在那儿了。

The signs were all there.

忽视了他们中的大多数人。

I ignored most of them.

结果证明这是个错误。

That turned out to be a mistake.

有些错误事后才会明显。

Some mistakes are obvious afterward.

这就是其中之一。

This was one of those.

回想起来，这似乎显而易见。

Looking back, it seems obvious.

当时并不是这样。

At the time, it didn't.

通常就是这样。

That's usually how it goes.

我希望一切都保持不变。

I wanted things to stay the same.

变化另有安排。

Change had other plans.

无论我是否准备好，它都到来了。

It arrived whether I was ready or not.

我花了大量时间抵制它。

I spent a lot of time resisting it.

没起到多大作用。

That didn't accomplish much.

最终我接受了现实。

Eventually I accepted reality.

之后情况变得轻松了。

The situation became easier after that.

不求完美，但求实用。

Not perfect, just easier.

有时候，这样就够了。

Sometimes that's enough.

你不必追求完美才能前进。

You don't need perfection to move forward.

我以为我已经懂了那些规则。

I thought I understood the rules.

然后规则改变了。

Then the rules changed.

没人告诉我。

Nobody told me.

我得自己弄明白。

I had to figure it out myself.

比预料的要久一些。

That took longer than expected.

多次试错。

There was a lot of trial and error.

说实话，大部分是错的。

Mostly error, if I'm being honest.

尽管如此，我还是学到了一些有用的东西。

Still, I learned something useful.

失败可以成为好老师。

Failure can be a good teacher.

即使它很烦人。

Even if it's an annoying one.

好像都比我更自信。

Everyone seemed more confident than me.

我总是怀疑自己。

I doubted myself constantly.

每个决定都显得很重要。

Every decision felt important.

我担心会犯错误。

I worried about making mistakes.

讽刺的是，那反而导致了更多的错误。

Ironically, that led to more mistakes.

自信比我意识到的更重要。

Confidence matters more than I realized.

不是盲目自信。

Not blind confidence.

刚好够继续前进。

Just enough to keep moving.

这比听起来要难。

That's harder than it sounds.

尤其是在你没有把握的时候。

Especially when you're uncertain.

我试图自己独自解决一切。

I tried to solve everything on my own.

那真是令人筋疲力尽。

That was exhausting.

最终我寻求帮助。

Eventually I asked for help.

人们比我预想的更愿意。

People were more willing than I expected.

真希望我早一点问就好了。

I wish I had asked sooner.

有些问题在一起时更容易解决。

Some problems are easier together.

不必事事亲力亲为。

You don't have to carry everything yourself.

那是一个值得铭记的教训。

That's a lesson worth remembering.

我偶尔会忘记它。

I tend to forget it sometimes.

然后我从头学起。

Then I learn it all over again.

越想越没把握。

The more I thought about it, the less sure I became.

每个答案都会引发新的问题。

Every answer created new questions.

一切都似乎不再简单。

Nothing seemed simple anymore.

我一直在追寻确定性。

I kept searching for certainty.

一直没到。

It never arrived.

人生不会给予太多保证。

Life doesn't offer many guarantees.

你反正会做出决定。

You make decisions anyway.

然后你来承担后果。

Then you deal with the consequences.

这就是成长的一部分。

That's part of growing up.

至少我认为是这样。

At least I think it is.

我以为所有人都在认真听。

I assumed everyone was paying attention.

大多数人都不是。

Most people weren't.

他们正忙着处理各自的问题。

They were busy with their own problems.

那番领悟令人意外地感到安慰。

That realization was surprisingly comforting.

人们经常想自己。

People think about themselves a lot.

就像我一样。

Just like I do.

我们都是自己故事里的主角。

We're all the main character in our own story.

这并不意味着我们自私。

That doesn't make us selfish.

这体现了我们的人性而已。

It just makes us human.

领悟了这一点后，我的看法改变了。

Understanding that changed my perspective.

机不可失，时不再来。

Some opportunities only appear once.

至少人们是这么说的。

At least that's what people say.

我不确定是否应该相信它。

I wasn't sure whether to believe it.

这种风险让我感到紧张。

The risk made me nervous.

这个可能性让我激动。

The possibility excited me.

我花了好几天思考这件事。

I spent days thinking about it.

最终，我抓住了机会。

In the end, I took the chance.

并非因为我无所畏惧。

Not because I was fearless.

因为我不想留遗憾。

Because I didn't want regrets.

有时候这已足够成为理由。

Sometimes that's enough reason.

学到的东西比预想的要多。

I learned more than I expected.

并不总是我想要的课。

Not always the lessons I wanted.

有些课程会伪装成问题到来。

Some lessons arrive disguised as problems.

其他人看起来像失败者。

Others look like failures.

你无法立即认出他们。

You don't recognize them immediately.

直到后来，它们才明白过来。

Only later do they make sense.

经验将点连成线。

Experience connects the dots.

时间会揭示规律。

Time reveals the pattern.

耐心也很重要。

Patience helps too.

我还在处理那部分。

I'm still working on that part.

这个故事的结局并不是我所想象的那样。

The story didn't end the way I imagined.

大多数故事并非如此。

Most stories don't.

现实偏爱它自己的版本。

Reality prefers its own version.

你适应它。

You adapt to it.

你从中学到东西。

You learn from it.

你以后会对某些部分觉得好笑。

You laugh about some parts later.

其他部分与你同在。

Other parts stay with you.

无论如何，你继续前行。

Either way, you keep going.

总有新的篇章在前方。

There's always another chapter ahead.

这或许是件好事。

And that's probably a good thing.